one day i’ll be older,
with older hands and older bones.
once i had a younger smile, i know;
not from the memory
of how it sat on my face
but from the pictures
of it crinkling up to my eyes.
and so although i know
that my voice will be older one day,
with older words,
i cannot quite believe in it.
~
ah, so the reality of it
does not seem real.
a waste of energy to force myself
to leap forward in time,
with all the unknowns
and unimaginables.
think of this instead:
that older self with older dreams,
what might she need
that i can build today?
think of this too:
tomorrow i’ll be older
and that is a future too
and i am building.